August 30, 2008

Hmmm...bored so thought I would write something. Yesterday I spent my whole day running errands for my mom. Went to Volvo dealership around 9 a.m to pick up a key for my mom and have it programed to her car. Waited there for about an hour for nothing because the key ended up being defected. My next stop was to Wal-mart (I hate that store, it's always so crowded) to send a money gram, get a money order, and an oil change. All of that ended up being 3 hours. I had so many other errands to do but I decided to put it off because by the time I made it out of Wal-mart I was too tired and annoyed to do anything else.

Today my crazy/evil sister came to town for the holiday weekend. I'm already wanting her to leave. She has the worst attitude, smartest mouth, and most negative energy ever! Anyway, I tried to play nice and hang out with her for the day but that was a big mistake. We ended up going to the mall which wasn't fun because of course It was just me an her. We finally leave the mall and before we make it out of the parking lot, her car shuts off and starts leaking gas. I was so pissed because I told her I would drive but she insisted on driving her broke down car. Some guy ended up stopping to help us push the car out of the street which was nice of him and our mom ended picking us up.....

I was already prepared for attitudes and for my mom to take everything out on me like always so that was no big deal for me but I did end up having a huge headache....Made it home, decided to study for my anatomy test. Now I'm just waiting for my friend to call me so we can hang out but it's looking like thats not going to happen. Nothing new, I'm always getting stood up...I'm at the point where I don't care anymore probably end up cutting communication with men off for a while. And they wonder why I act the way I do.

What A Hectic Day!

Ok, so today was certainly not a day I was expecting it to be! Well I woke up pretty late in the day and I don't know how that happened. I'm usually up around 8 or 9 but today I slept till 11. Anyway, so i woke up at 11 realized I had an hour and thirty to get ready for class. Walked around the house looking crazy for about 15 mins because I was still half sleep. Fed Teddy and took him out to the bathroom, fixed myself breakfast and then my friend called to come by and use the computer. So she comes and I notice I only have 30 mins to get ready for class. I jump in the shower, get dressed, fix my hair, and apply my make-up. My friend leaves and I rush to school.

I get to school and see this old man walk in with a bruised and swollen face. It was horrible, I didn't know if he just got into a fight or was in a car accident but It was a horrible sight I know that. Anyway, I realize its my teacher! Class starts and he apologizes for his appearance letting us know that he had surgery the day before. The story was really crazy but long story short, he had a cancerous bump on his nose and had to get it removed.

So I get through that class and head to my ANP 102 class.I get there and discover that the deadline to take the TEAS test to enter the Nursing Program is next week. I freaked out! Mind you I didn't study for this test didn't even know that there was a deadline to take it. So I skip class go sign up and end up having to take it at 5p.m today because that was the only opening left unless I drove to Michigan City tomorrow. I was so nervous! Anyway I went and took the test and basically failed it by 15pts. which really pissed me off but at the same time I was proud that I did so well for taking it at the last minute and not studying at all.

I came to the conclusion that I would just study and take the test again in about a month or two. Next semester I'll either sit out or just take 2 classes and sign up for the CNA program. Complete the CNA program, find a job in Indianapolis, and start the Nursing Program next August at Ivy Tech in Indianapolis. I talked to my mom and friends and they thought it was a pretty good Idea so thats something I'm sure I will be doing. Well I'm excited for the goals I have now set so i plan on going to sleep happy! :) GOODNIGHT

Venting

Welp, I'm officially tired of being strung along... Today I was hoping would be an exciting day but instead I spent it waiting by the phone. I'm so pissed at myself, I can't believe I got so excited to spend time with someone who only ended up leaving me in the dark. Sometimes I wonder why I should even try to date, I only end up getting emotional and stressed out!

Well I guess I should explain what happened...Last night a guy I hung out with a while ago called me out of the blue. I haven't talked to him in months! Well he went on about how he was glad to hear my voice. Asked me how things were going, if I was still single...we stayed on the relationship subject for some time which basically made me feel like he was wanting to fill the empty spot. Anyway, he asked if he could see me the next day and how much he wanted to keep in touch with me if I was ok with it. Of course I said it was ok because I really liked this guy. Well today I basically stuck around the house waiting to hear from him and he never showed up.

I have so many problems with men I just think I shouldn't even worry about dating anymore. It's too stressful. For now on I think I'm just going to worry about school and family!.........Off to bed I go :(

Feeling Love Yet So Confused

My summer was pretty boring, probably the most boring summer ever lol. I did get to spend some time with my two favorite girls in Indianapolis, that was lots of fun. While in Indianapolis I guess I pissed others off for not making time to see them but oh well. Sometimes I do wish I made time for that one special person I pissed off...Speaking of that special person, we recently got back in touch with each other. Talking like we use to which I'm enjoying. I don't know what it is but he'll always have a special place in my heart even though at times I feel like I can't figure him out, but I'm working on it.
Not too long ago he mentioned how he needs a "right now" girl ...still don't know what the hell that means lol. I'm almost positive it has nothing to do with sex because he knows thats not happening. Anyway...we still have a thing for each other but he's still not wanting to be in a relationship especially with the distance between us which I can understand. I definitaly appreciate him letting me know that he coudln't handle a long distance relationship. Who really wants to be with someone knowing they can't be faithful? Def not me...Anyway I got love for him maybe he'll come around.
Hmmm....just thinking about my day. Which was great by the way lol. My whole weekend was pretty good but I'll get to that a little later. What mainly made my day so wonderful was a phone call I recieved. Never thought I would hear from this guy but my friend Mark called me not too long ago. I guess you can say he's the reason why I'm really writing this lol....Well, I haven't heard from him in sooo long. Went about 2-3 months without talking to him then he called out of the blue left a message and I didn't get to actually talk to him until now which would be a month later....
I've wrote about him a couple of times in recent blogs...How a wonderful charming gentleman he is. I haven't been this worked up over a guy since my last very very special friend ( may he rest in peace). Well we talkind for a few, kinda caught up on whats going on in each others lives. I guess he's doing pretty good. Moved, still working on his music, traveling, and going out the country next month...kudos to him lol...We got on the subject of relationships which I don;t know why but it kinda shocked me. I guess he was trying to see where my head was at and if I was involved with anybody before he picked up where he left. Well anyway his plans are to be in the area tomorrow so I guess I will see if I'm dealing with the same ol' bs or if he's really interested in staying in touch with me. I am really excited tho! lol
Well time to end this with what I did this weekend. Hmm...well my mom decided to have a mini vacation with her new boo so I decided to take advantage of my time alone. Rented some movies and cooked on Friday, Saturday I woke up feeling good so I decided to get all dolled up and head to the mall to get my nails and eyebrows done. Today I went to the mall once again, bought a pair of shoes and watched Street Kings (really good movie). Tomorrow I'm anticipating a day with Mark and probably run a couple of errands for my mom. Tuesday will be the begining of a busy semester so I'm kinda excited for that honestly because I've been bored for so long lol. Anyway, hopefully I'll start writing more often. It's really not good to keep stuff bottled in. On that note GOODNIGHT